I’ve been avoiding making this post for a long time

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but I finally realized that I cannot sit here and blog about body positivity and self acceptance without addressing it.

Here I am when I first made my fitblr account during freshman year of college at ~184 lbs.

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Here I am a little over a year later at ~154 lbs…

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Seems like a great success story, right? I was exercising at least 6 times a week, training for a half marathon and prepping for a national Tae Kwon Do collegiate tournament.

I was more active than I had ever been in my adult life and the thinnest I had ever been too. I loved my body and did my best to treat it with health and respect.

Then, in the fall, I started the extremely competitive social work program and I no longer had time to work out 6+ times a week. Instead, I was spending time in study groups and writing papers. I got good grades and expanded everything I thought my professional career could be - for once I felt confident in my intelligence and had the world at my finger tips. 

But, without the time or energy to devote to maintaining my new active lifestyle I gained most of the weight back. 

This was me today; I think I weigh ~185 lbs (I haven’t seriously weighted myself in a long time so I really have no idea what I weigh)

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I’m not as skinny as I was. In some ways I feel like a hypocrite to tout about fitness and health even though I wasn’t able to maintain my weight loss. 

But I actually love the way I look. I feel sexy and hold my head higher than I ever did before.

And I start my graduate program next week. Freshman year I was in danger of flunking out of college and never dreamed of doing more school, but now I’m starting the road to get my PhD (Masters first!) and have bigger dreams than my next goal weight.

Sure I’d like to be able to lose those 30 lbs again, but I’ve realized that my life and my happiness is tied to way more important things. 

I am going to lose and gain more weight in my life countless times, but as long as I always love myself I will be fine. Also my thunder thighs are amazing and I love not wearing pants.

I’ve been avoiding making this post for a long time

but I finally realized that I cannot sit here and blog about body positivity and self acceptance without addressing it.

Here I am when I first made my fitblr account during freshman year of college at ~184 lbs.

Here I am a little over a year later at ~154 lbs…

Seems like a great success story, right? I was exercising at least 6 times a week, training for a half marathon and prepping for a national Tae Kwon Do collegiate tournament.

I was more active than I had ever been in my adult life and the thinnest I had ever been too. I loved my body and did my best to treat it with health and respect.

Then, in the fall, I started the extremely competitive social work program and I no longer had time to work out 6+ times a week. Instead, I was spending time in study groups and writing papers. I got good grades and expanded everything I thought my professional career could be - for once I felt confident in my intelligence and had the world at my finger tips. 

But, without the time or energy to devote to maintaining my new active lifestyle I gained most of the weight back. 

This was me today; I think I weigh ~185 lbs (I haven’t seriously weighted myself in a long time so I really have no idea what I weigh)

I’m not as skinny as I was. In some ways I feel like a hypocrite to tout about fitness and health even though I wasn’t able to maintain my weight loss. 

But I actually love the way I look. I feel sexy and hold my head higher than I ever did before.

And I start my graduate program next week. Freshman year I was in danger of flunking out of college and never dreamed of doing more school, but now I’m starting the road to get my PhD (Masters first!) and have bigger dreams than my next goal weight.

Sure I’d like to be able to lose those 30 lbs again, but I’ve realized that my life and my happiness is tied to way more important things. 

I am going to lose and gain more weight in my life countless times, but as long as I always love myself I will be fine. Also my thunder thighs are amazing and I love not wearing pants.

Bikini Burn Day 15 - still cute!

WOOOOOO KICK BOXING/TAEKWON DO WORKOUTS MAKE ME SWEAT

and make me really happy

I love going back to my fitness roots 

Im counting this as Bikini Burn Day 15

Hmmm so today is supposed to be Day 15 of bikini burn - Cardio Body Shaper. But I’m kinda bored of the workouts after two weeks of the same thing… so I think I’m gonna take the interval concept and do kick boxing.

still super duper cardio and enough of a change to stay interested in the exercise

Took a rest day yesterday and indulged with a three hour nap! Considering I’m fighting off a cold and my snot if bright green it was probably  good idea.

Now I’m debating whether I want to take it easy again today and drink my weight in tea…

Pros of working out at home: wearing only underwear or brig totally naked

Cons of working out at home: the whole house shakes

In related news, Bikini Burn Day 13 is completed!

(He didn’t know I was taking the picture.) Had a great time on the Chicago river today.

Ugh why am I so exhausted but not tired to go to sleep?!

After spending the whole day on a boat in Chicago I was pretty friggin exhausted. But I ponyed up and did Bikini Burn Day 10!

Honestly it didn’t feel as effective as it has before, so I think I need to up the intensity! But maybe im just too tired after a long day.

At least I did it!!

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